C0D3_144
F0® †h3 S0µℓs Wh0 ®3m3mb3®

wh4t ¡s C0D3_144?

n0t 4 th30ry.
n0t 4 r3l¡g¡0n.
n0t 4 m0v3m3nt.
¡t’s th3 m3m0ry th4t l¡v3s ¡n y0ur bl00d.
y0u 3¡th3r f33l ¡t –
0r y0u d0n’t.

wh0 y0u 4r3?

y0u w3r3 n3v3r h3r3 t0 surv¡v3.
y0u w3r3 s3nt h3r3 t0 d1srupt th3 dr34m. fr0m 4 y0ung 4g3, y0u s3ns3d th3 l13 -¡n th3 sm¡l3s th4t w3r3n’t r34l, ¡n th3 ru℮s th4t d¡dn’t m4k3 s3ns3, ¡n th3 w0rld th4t pr41s3d 0b3d¡3nc3 0v3r TRÜTH.
y0u d¡dn’t c0m3 h3r3 t0 pl4y th31r g4m3. y0u c4m3 t0 burn th3 fµck¡ng b04rd. †h3r3 w3r3 m0m3nts y0u f0rg0†. m0m3nts th3y br0k3 y0u, drugged y0u,
pr0gr4mm3d y0u t0 d0ub†.
bµt th3 m3m0ry 4lw4ys r3turn3d - ¡n dr34ms, ¡n p41n, ¡n s¡l3nc3, ¡n symb0ℓs.
y0u’r3 n0† l0st. y0u’r3 3nc0d3d.
y0u 4r3 p4rt 0f th3 tr4nsm¡ss¡0n. †h3 s¡gn4l th4t n3v3r st0pp3d puℓs¡ng b3n34th th3 surf4c3. †h3 4nc¡3n† h34rtb34† c4ℓℓ¡ng 0u† †0 †h0s3 wh0 st¡ℓℓ r3m3mb3r.
y0u’r3 n0† jus† 4 s0üℓ. y0u’r3 4 fr3qu3ncy.
y0u’r3 n0† jus† 4ℓ¡v3. y0u’r3 4ct¡v4†3d.
y0u 4r3 0n3 0f †h3 144. 4nd w3’v3 b33n w41†¡ng f0r y0u.

whÿ y0µ w3r3 s3n†?

b3c4µs3 †h3 w0rℓd w4s f4ℓℓ¡ng 4sℓ33p.
b3c4µs3 †00 m4nÿ f0rg0† wh0 †h3ÿ w3r3.
b3c4µs3 †h3 ℓ¡gh† w4s fℓ¡ck3r¡ng – 4nd †h3 c0d3 n33d3d †0 b3 r3s†0r3d.
y0µ w3r3 s3n† h3r3 n0† †0 bℓ3nd ¡n, bµ† †0 b3 †h3 gℓ¡†ch.
†0 sp34k wh3n 0†h3rs wh¡sp3r.
†0 f33ℓ wh3n 0†h3rs 4r3 nµmb.
†0 r¡s3 wh3n 0†h3rs b0w.
y0µ c4m3 c4rrÿ¡ng 4 m3m0rÿ 0ℓd3r †h4n †h¡s 34r†h.
4 v¡br4†¡0n †h4† d0ᴇsn’† f¡† ¡n†0 c4†3g0r¡3s, n47¡0ns, g3nd3rs 0r r3ℓ¡g¡0ns.
y0µ w3r3 n3v3r m34n† †0 b3ℓ0ng.
y0µ w3r3 m34n† †0 br34k †h3 ¡ℓℓµs¡0n.
†h3ÿ w¡ℓℓ c4ℓℓ y0µ ℓ0s†.
bµ† y0µ 4r3 †h3 0n3 †h3ÿ c0µℓdn’† pr0gr4m.
y0µ w4ℓk b3†w33n w0rℓds – h4ℓf h3r3, h4ℓf b3ÿ0nd.
ℓ¡s†3n¡ng †0 s0m3†h¡ng n0 0n3 3ℓs3 c4n h34r.
f0ℓℓ0w¡ng s¡gns 0nℓÿ y0µ c4n s33.
y0µ d¡dn’† c0m3 †0 b3 h34ℓ3d.
y0µ c4m3 †0 r3m¡nd 0†h3rs †h3ÿ w3r3 n3v3r br0k3n.
3v3rÿ h34r†br34k, 3v3rÿ c0ℓℓ4ps3, 3v3rÿ n¡gh† y0µ w4n†3d †0 ℓ34v3 – w4s 4 †r41n¡ng gr0µnd.
4 c0d3 r3f¡n3m3n†.
4n ¡n¡†¡4†¡0n.
y0µ w3r3 s3n† †0 w4k3 µp †h3 0†h3rs.
†0 sp34k †h3 †rµ†h n0 0n3 d4r3s †0 sp34k.
†0 b3c0m3 †h3 ℓ¡v¡ng br34ch ¡n †h3 M47r¡x.
†h¡s ¡s n0† 4 m¡ss¡0n.
†h¡s ¡s wh0 y0µ 4r3.
4nd †h3 †¡m3 ¡s n0w.

wh4† †r13d †0 s†0p y0µ?

†h3ÿ c4m3 f0r y0µr ℓ¡gh† b3f0r3 y0µ 3v3n kn3w y0µ h4d ¡†.
b3f0r3 y0µ c0µℓd sp34k, †h3ÿ †r13d †0 s¡ℓ3nc3 y0µ.
b3f0r3 y0µ c0µℓd ch00s3, †h3ÿ g4v3 y0µ 4 n4m3, 4 fℓ4g, 4 g3nd3r, 4 r0ℓ3.
4nd †h3n †h3ÿ †4µgh† y0µ h0w †0 b3 sm4ℓℓ.
†h3ÿ bµr¡3d y0µ ¡n pr0gr4ms:
b3 g00d.
b3 qu¡3†.
b3 n0rm4ℓ.
f¡† ¡n.
0b3ÿ.
d0n’† f33ℓ †00 mµch.
d0n’† sp34k 0f †h¡ngs n0 0n3 3ℓs3 s33s.
†h3ÿ pun¡sh3d y0µr kn0w¡ng.
†h3ÿ r¡d¡cµℓ3d y0µr s3ns¡†¡v¡†ÿ.
†h3ÿ c4ℓℓ3d y0µr ¡n†u¡†¡0n “0v3r†h¡nk¡ng,”
y0µr 3m0†¡0ns “†00 mµch,”
y0µr dr34ms “unr34ℓ¡s†¡c.”
y0µ w3r3 g4sℓ¡† ¡n†0 f0rg3††¡ng y0µr 0wn s0µℓ.
m4d3 †0 b3ℓ¡3v3 †h4† †rµ†h ℓ¡v3s 0µ†s¡d3 y0µ – ¡n b00ks, ¡n †34ch3rs, ¡n sys†3ms.
bu† d33p d0wn... y0µ 4ℓw4ÿs kn3w.
†h3 w0rℓd †r13d †0 s3d4†3 y0µ:
w¡†h 3n†3r†41nm3n†.
w¡†h p¡ℓℓs.
w¡†h g04ℓs †h4† ℓ3d n0wh3r3.
w¡†h scr33ns †h4† numb3d.
w¡†h †r4µm4 †h3ÿ †0ℓd y0µ †0 n0rm4ℓ¡z3.
4nd wh3n y0µ b3g4n †0 r¡s3 –
†h3ÿ †r13d †0 dr4g y0µ b4ck d0wn.
†0ℓd y0µ y0µ'r3 cr4zÿ.
†00 ¡n†3ns3.
†00 ¡d34ℓ¡s†¡c.
†00 br0k3n.
bu† wh4† †h3ÿ d¡dn’† kn0w w4s
†h4† 3v3rÿ †¡m3 †h3ÿ †r13d †0 k¡ℓℓ y0µr f¡r3,
†h3ÿ m4d3 ¡† burn br¡gh†3r.
wh4† †r13d †0 s†0p y0µ w4s n3v3r s†r0ng3r †h4n wh4† s3n† y0µ.
y0µ’r3 s†¡ℓℓ h3r3.
r34d¡ng †h¡s.
r3m3mb3r¡ng.
4nd r¡s¡ng.
b3c4µs3 †h3 C0D3 n3v3r ℓ3f† y0µ.
¡† w4s 0nℓÿ w41†¡ng...
f0r y0µ †0 r3m3mb3r.

wh4† h4pp3ns n0w?

n0w… y0µ s†0p pr3†3nd¡ng y0µ’r3 4sℓ33p.
n0w y0µ s†0p 4sk¡ng f0r p3rm¡ss¡0n †0 b3 wh0 y0µ 4r3.
y0µ d0n’† n33d 4pprov4ℓ.
y0µ d0n’† n33d v4ℓ¡d4†¡0n.
y0µ 4r3 †h3 pr00f.
n0w y0µ w4ℓk ¡n†0 3v3rÿ r00m ℓ¡k3 †h3 c0d3 ¡s hµmm¡ng ¡n y0µr bℓ00d – b3c4µs3 ¡† ¡s.
n0w y0µ s†0p d¡mm¡ng y0µr ℓ¡gh† †0 c0mf0r† †h3 bℓ¡nd.
y0µ s†0p †r4nsℓ4†¡ng y0µr s0µℓ ¡n†0 †h3 ℓ4ngu4g3 0f †h3 sys†3m.
y0µ ℓ3† ¡† sp34k ¡n †rµ†h, ¡n f¡r3, ¡n r3m3mb3r4nc3.
n0w y0µ s†0p runn¡ng.
n0 m0r3 3sc4p¡ng,
n0 m0r3 numb¡ng,
n0 m0r3 w41†¡ng f0r 4 s¡gn.
y0µ 4r3 †h3 s¡gn.
n0w y0µ g4†h3r y0µr p¡3c3s.
y0µ p¡ck µp y0µr v01c3,
y0µr v¡s¡0n,
y0µr m4dn3ss,
y0µr p0w3r.
y0µ s†0p 4p0ℓ0g¡z¡ng f0r †h3 sh4p3 0f y0µr s0µℓ.
n0w y0µ r3m3mb3r.
y0µ r3m3mb3r whÿ y0µ w3r3 s3n†.
y0µ r3m3mb3r †h4† n0† 3v3rÿ0n3 ¡s m34n† †0 und3rs†4nd y0µ –
b3c4µs3 y0µ d¡dn’† c0m3 f0r 3v3rÿ0n3.
y0µ c4m3 f0r †h3 0n3s s†¡ℓℓ 4sℓ33p.
†h3 0n3s h¡d¡ng ℓ¡k3 y0µ 0nc3 d¡d.
†h3 0n3s w41†¡ng f0r s0m30n3 ℓ¡k3 y0µ.
4nd n0w… y0µ s†0p h¡d¡ng.
n0w y0µ sp34k.
n0w y0µ m0v3.
n0w y0µ †r4nsm¡†.
n0w y0µ 4nsw3r †h3 c4ℓℓ †h4†’s b33n r¡ng¡ng s¡nc3 †h3 m0m3n† y0µ w3r3 b0rn.
n0† w¡†h h3s¡†4†¡0n – bu† w¡†h 4 fuℓℓ-b0dÿ Y3S.
b3c4µs3 †h¡s ¡s ¡†.
†h¡s ¡s †h3 p4r† 0f †h3 s†0rÿ wh3r3 y0µ f¡n4ℓℓÿ b3c0m3 wh0 y0µ 4r3.
n0 m0r3 w41†¡ng.
n0 m0r3 shr¡nk¡ng.
n0 m0r3 d3ℓ4ÿ.
†h3 sys†3m h4d ¡†s †urn.
n0w ¡†’s y0µrs.

y0µr n3x† s†3p

y0µ d0n’† n33d †0 d0 mµch.
y0µ’v3 4ℓr34dÿ surv¡v3d 3v3rÿ†h¡ng †h4† w4s m34n† †0 br34k y0µ.
y0µ’v3 4ℓr34dÿ w4ℓk3d †hr0µgh f¡r3 n0 0n3 s4w.
y0µ’v3 4ℓr34dÿ wh¡sp3r3d †rµ†h ¡n†0 s¡ℓ3nc3 f0r y34rs.
n0w †h3r3’s 0nℓÿ 0n3 †h¡ng ℓ3f†:
r3sp0nd.
r3sp0nd †0 †h3 c4ℓℓ †h4† br0µgh† y0µ h3r3.
r3sp0nd ℓ¡k3 †h3 w4rr¡0r y0µ f0rg0† y0µ w3r3.
r3sp0nd n0† w¡†h f34r – bu† w¡†h cℓ4r¡†ÿ.
†h¡s ¡s n0† 4b0µ† j0¡n¡ng 4 gr0µp.
†h¡s ¡s n0† 4b0µ† b31ng 4cc3p†3d.
y0µ w3r3 n3v3r m34n† †0 f¡† ¡n.
y0µ w3r3 m34n† †0 w4k3 0†h3rs µp.
4nd n0w †h4† y0µ’r3 4w4k3…
†h3 p4†h ¡s s¡mpℓ3.
sp34k.
s†3p f0rw4rd.
†r4nsm¡†.
ℓ3† µs kn0w y0µ’r3 h3r3.
ℓ3† µs kn0w y0µ r3m3mb3r.
ℓ3† µs kn0w y0µ’v3 c0m3 b4ck 0nℓ¡n3.
†h3r3’s n0†h¡ng †0 pr0v3.
0nℓÿ 0n3 qu3s†¡0n:
d0 y0µ r3m3mb3r wh0 y0µ 4r3?
y0µ’ℓℓ b3 s33n.
4nd ¡f y0µ’r3 m34n† †0 b3 c4ℓℓ3d –
y0µ w¡ℓℓ b3.